I'm glad I started this again. Even if no one reads it, which I doubt anyone will as hardly anyone uses lj anymore, it means I can vent a little.
I'm just feeling like shit today. Me and Allan were supposed to get married next year. But because he lost his job we can't afford it now. And now my brother and his fiancé are planning their wedding. It's just getting me down.
As is money, or should I say, lack thereof. Me and Allan are broke. I'm talking, don't know how we are going to pay our bills, broke. Now, this isn't a cry for help. But it is getting to me.
I've just spent all day wanting to cry. But I can't. I've got to put a brave face on. I'm a mum now, I can't afford to lose my shit.